I Spoke Unkindly

And it is going to haunt me for weeks. Libations, Social stress, months of hurt burbling up inside. I uttered two of the most unkind, outright awful, mean sentences I have perhaps ever. I feel like shit but I can't take it back. Toxic waste spewing from my mouth. I could have chosen to reamin silent but I did not. I am so sorry I know it means little and that maybe you would be like whatever or let's not talk about it. I have been so hurt these last weeks. Why Why Why Why.